alexa please play “she’s back from her hiatus”
hi, I’ve missed this :’) — (and just like that she’s back from her hiatus)
First off, i spent 30 minutes looking for the thumbnail image on this post. months deep in my snapchat memories. it’s the sheer ✨dedication✨ for me. now, let’s begin.
It’s sunday, august 1st, 2021; nearing 1 a.m. & i wouldn’t want to be doing anything else besides writing this. if you’re new here, hi. i’m des(tinee) & i love writing in all forms. When i was younger (and currently) i dreamt of being a Schmedium-famous* writer. for now, my writing skills shall thrive here; on my very own blog.
*Schmedium-famous = Famous enough to be decently well off & stress free but not “ayy good morning kanye” famous.
I tend to turn to writing when i start to experience “stuck feelings”* and/or am suffocated by the observation of my thoughts swirling around in my head.
*pause* — see what i did there? the observation of my thoughts. i learned that one through mindfulness meditation. with that, a formal thank you to the british man on headspace who helps me stay sane. ily.
*stuck feelings = Feelings that have been harbored or not expressed in an internally/externally satisfying & healthy manner
I’ve always been a significantly expressive person. the catch is, i do it of my own free will & i’m not the loudest about it. hence the reason why i turn to writing a majority of the time. in result, i’ve gained the reputation of being “mysterious”. although, I think that title applies to those who don’t necessarily have access to my inner world more than anything. which is intentional and how i like it to be. protect your energy always.
i first started blogging early on in high school. i didn’t tell a lot of people about it. mostly because at first i wanted it to simply be mine; a safe haven. (and if you’re wondering, yes. i was a closet, somewhat angsty tumblr teen for like 2 seconds. that destinee walked, so i could run). however, i kept writing throughout college and more people gradually found out. although looking back, i really didn’t mind. it was shocking to me when people [who at the time, i was sure didn’t care to read my writing] would reach out and express that they loved reading my work and/or would ask me to keep posting. naturally, i kept doing just that (with one, or two, or ten hiatuses in between).
to wrap this intro up, the point is that writing is the skill that i consider to be my most effortless talent. it’s one of those things I don’t have to think too much about; it calmly flows out when i have something personally compelling to attach it to. whether that be a subject (in school & out of school), a thought, or an emotion. I can run with it. so i’m here again, back and better than ever.
the thing is, i didn’t want to return without inspiration. if/when i write, i always want it to be raw & authentic. i believe it’s a special thing to be able to connect with others (whether i know it or not) through passion, energy, and something that’s metaphorically tangible. With an art form like this, it’s a perfect way to do it. it’s freeing, open, and up to the interpretation of whoever sees this through their own screen. that and in my case, It seems to be an easier means of expression than when speaking is involved.
(although, i do like the idea of people being able to imagine how i’d sound if i were saying all of this out loud. maybe that’s wishful thinking, maybe i’ve seen too many sappy coming-of-age movies where the main character narrates, or maybe it’s exactly what’s happening in your head right now).
anyway, i’m happy to be back & there’s new stuff coming :’)
it’s late so i’m out of here
xx, -des ☾